Apr 26, 2010

An old post in the draft

P/S: I wrote this right after I spend those time with you, but I didn't have the guts to pull it off. now, idk if what I felt still exists, my egos are coming up, and I can't help it. I want to be alone now. sigh*

Love is all about being patient,
maybe I was blind, but I believe he was patient with my attitude,
I thought I was,
and now it's my turn to be patient,
patient towards myself, him, my loved ones
Thanks Kara, your post made me think.

I know, I hurt him in a way, he could not even handle,
it hurt so bad that it was better for me to stay away from him,
and I did, but I couldn't, because I've failed myself
I've failed him
I can't make him happy anymore, I can't ease him anymore
Maybe I can, but he won't let himself to take the risk of being hurt again?

Someone told me,
"Music is love, love is music, music is my life, and I love my life",
You are my MUSIC syg,
Let me in your heart again, and I will treat you right
the way you deserve to,

I love the way you are, and I believe you know how I am
and I am not lying to you right now and you know that
I understand how it feels, I realized how deep the wound was,
I won't ever want you to feel that again
maybe I'm out of place right now, but I'm handling it sanely

I menggelabah, when I am the reason you're not happy
baby, I'm patient now
towards how you are and how everything going
I'm not messed up and am not keeping the out of control act

I heard a song,
"Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days"

I remember life with you
and I can't be without
some people belongs in ur life till the end, some are just a phase

Apr 25, 2010


look for me and save me
find me and save me

save me from myself
save me from you

save me

Apr 22, 2010

When there's no one around

It's 6.20 am
and I'm home
I'll wait for the time to pass on
so I stare and stare
the picture on my screen
the anklet you gave me
and the bracelet on my wrist

when there's no one around
and nowhere to be found
I'll make up words to a sentence
so I won't bother other existence

all I'd like to say
to make it clear all the way
that I'll be here
with no fear

when there's no one around you
and nobody found you
I'll make up threads to a blanket
so you would not feel sad

7 years has come and pass
tho' we hope it last
now I let it up to god
to define the knots

I'll be here
when there's no one around
reach out
when you need a sound

Apr 13, 2010

the ayat

Don't find the time to cry for me, don't find the words to speak for me, don't find the nerve to feel for me, just get the fuck away from me

Apr 2, 2010

I was always sure about what I want to do
but I was never sure when it comes to you

Take me into the night and I'll show you the other side

The lights are out, and we're lying here on this bed
both on the other side

It might seem we're going nowhere
lay down beside me and stare
stare through our hearts that have pushed so far

catch my heart and say it's alright
and roll over to the part we always stayed
let me make you feel alive again

for one last time let's go to the part we're afraid of
hold my hand and lead me there
push my hair aside and whisper
say " we're here "

Take me into the night, and I'll show you the other side
the side we have lost, for too much shouts and doubts
now blinded, and redeeming the parts we fall in love with
fragile and torn, now flowing with threads of emptiness

will the water flow in the right directions?
and heals as our hopes do?

am searching for the antidote in me
that you once call yours
and make you smile once again

starting to listen to the voices I've ignored
starting to understand rather than againts
accepting the possibilities that are on the window

It's wonderful how you remind me why I fell for you in the 1st place
It's those little surprises
The way you talk to me, the way you say maybe
and won't let your heart down
It's the way you wondered but never shown
It's the way you care but never seem
It's the way you love me, and how u made me feel
you did it your way, not like any other
It's the way you know me, diff from the others
It's the way you look at me, when everyone is around
It's the way you listen and understood more than i could

yes, all of the troubles blinded me from the importants
I was a fool to forget
Now I got it all back,
sticking it in my mind, either way

Let the wind blows us the way it want to
Let the time passes and displays
as the hopes ushers us
and hold us closer more than we ever did