Apr 25, 2011

Holding yours, teasing hers

Sprinkle a little bit of your love to me
drain away the bits that hurts in me
with your smile, it lit up the world to me
and your hands just made it complete

I maybe avoiding but I ain't teasing
testing the waters for something pleasing
I'm holding back for the same reason
that makes our head distant

I hold my promise to another man
& you hold yours to the one you have
you could be the reason to a lot of things
but we can't see what the future brings

I stand aside & you keep hugging tight
to these feelings that we can't hide
if you ever kiss that lady right
a part of you in me has died

Lullaby 2

There are tiny boxes in my mind
Little steps in my heart
that leaves marks around

The boxes keeps on coming with bubbling air
blowing ages of kept secrets away
It throws ashes bit by bit
washes spots that's hard to hit
it holds my hands but I won't look by
& do not ask me why

Words floats over my head
with silly boats sinking
there's this boy that I've met
makes my heart go beating

Apr 26, 2010

An old post in the draft

P/S: I wrote this right after I spend those time with you, but I didn't have the guts to pull it off. now, idk if what I felt still exists, my egos are coming up, and I can't help it. I want to be alone now. sigh*

Love is all about being patient,
maybe I was blind, but I believe he was patient with my attitude,
I thought I was,
and now it's my turn to be patient,
patient towards myself, him, my loved ones
Thanks Kara, your post made me think.

I know, I hurt him in a way, he could not even handle,
it hurt so bad that it was better for me to stay away from him,
and I did, but I couldn't, because I've failed myself
I've failed him
I can't make him happy anymore, I can't ease him anymore
Maybe I can, but he won't let himself to take the risk of being hurt again?

Someone told me,
"Music is love, love is music, music is my life, and I love my life",
You are my MUSIC syg,
Let me in your heart again, and I will treat you right
the way you deserve to,

I love the way you are, and I believe you know how I am
and I am not lying to you right now and you know that
I understand how it feels, I realized how deep the wound was,
I won't ever want you to feel that again
maybe I'm out of place right now, but I'm handling it sanely

I menggelabah, when I am the reason you're not happy
baby, I'm patient now
towards how you are and how everything going
I'm not messed up and am not keeping the out of control act

I heard a song,
"Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days"

I remember life with you
and I can't be without
some people belongs in ur life till the end, some are just a phase

Apr 25, 2010


look for me and save me
find me and save me

save me from myself
save me from you

save me

Apr 22, 2010

When there's no one around

It's 6.20 am
and I'm home
I'll wait for the time to pass on
so I stare and stare
the picture on my screen
the anklet you gave me
and the bracelet on my wrist

when there's no one around
and nowhere to be found
I'll make up words to a sentence
so I won't bother other existence

all I'd like to say
to make it clear all the way
that I'll be here
with no fear

when there's no one around you
and nobody found you
I'll make up threads to a blanket
so you would not feel sad

7 years has come and pass
tho' we hope it last
now I let it up to god
to define the knots

I'll be here
when there's no one around
reach out
when you need a sound

Apr 13, 2010

the ayat

Don't find the time to cry for me, don't find the words to speak for me, don't find the nerve to feel for me, just get the fuck away from me