All I can say is,

Speechless and glad.

it worth every second and I cherish that




:)

In the dark

Baby,
I see u when darkness slowly closing in on me

I want to shout, to make u notice

yes
I don't need you
because I can live without you
I don't need you
because I can be on my own

but I can't
doesn't matter how far I am or try to be
doesn't matter whoever surrounds me

my heart is with you
and I keep falling back towards you

I didn't force or make it go your way
but it did anyway
I'm still not forcing or make my heart and mind with thoughts of you
but it is
every minute and every second
I didn't make my body feel your presence
but I felt it anyway

each time I look away
there would be a piece of you falls on my lap
I'd brush it off
and it would still flew back to me

each step i walk further away from you
theres a a chain that keep pulling me back
and when i stood still, it kept trying to make me tripped
tripped into you, thoughts of you, presence of you
each distinct significant parts of you
crumbling down on me

God, make it stop, please
it hurts
it keeps reminding me that he's not mine anymore
and I'm not his.

am I not yours baby?

but wait, don't make it stop
keep it coming
because I LOVE YOU
and even when it hurts,
at the end of the day,
I'll be fine
because even thoughts of you, makes me smile

IMY, I really do.

I fall asleep at night, dreaming of you,
and when I get home from classes,
I looked for my phone to reach you like I always do,
or when I get home, I would have called,
if I could.

I miss you
and all the little things that we do
I miss you
from the sunrise and every other day too

Everytime I walk in my room,
theres pictures of you scattered on the table
and when I looked down,
I'll end up seeing flashes of our hardest time together,

I miss you
and the feeling when u said we're fine
I miss you
and thoughts of you just kept me blind

P/S :I miss waking you up every other day,
I miss you saying you can't wait to see me
I miss your sincere 'Im-truly-happy' grin :)
I miss you asking how I'm doing today
I miss you calling me smooch, sweets and love
I even miss you cooking me lunch :)
I miss you giving me an eye to show that i did something wrong
I miss you saying you're worried
I miss you telling me 'Imy syg'
I miss the smell of your breath
I miss how you always take more time getting ready than I do
I miss how you smell better than me
I miss how much you workout
I miss those driving range
I miss those lonely nights away
I miss the snaps of silly pictures
I miss how u hug me from the back
I miss how u roll over to my side and hug me after we fight
I miss you comforting me
I miss calling u my home
I miss the teases and doveys
I miss you bothering me
I miss seeing your name comes up on my phone
I miss your calls and talks
I miss seeing my picture in ur wallet
I miss you saying 'everything's fine'
I miss you standing up for me
I Miss You, and if I could just pick up the phone and say
"I MISS YOU SO MUCH", I would.

Remember when u wrote " She's my gugugaga" and "Duh-vey"
That's when I know you're telling the world I'm yours, and that's all there is.
Everything felt perfect that moment, and
I couldn't be more proud to be the one by your side.

So, I'd like to say 'thank you', for that moment, that feeling.

9th

I will rise,
breathing through dark clouds of the hours, I will embrace
so you'll see me

I will rise,
I will run up the mountains, and roar as loud
so you can hear me

I believe that someday will be my time and I feel that its coming to me
I'm reaching from beneath the core,to loose myself free,and be alive for me

I wonder if you ever be waiting for me, at the end of the tunnel

Trouble

You're trouble,
descend from grace,
You're addictive,
lighten from the best,

I tried to leave you
exhaling from my system
you're a drug
chases the shadow i disgrace

every threat from you
are words of love
you're a disease
that cures my sickness

I'll follow you from the crowd of ghosts
I'll look for every track that I can find

I miss the days of surprises
Leaving does not mean I gave in
It means I need to survive
from you

thank you for the wonderful memories
and the time of crises
<3

bitter & sweet

Yummy cupcakes, colored flavors,
bit my tongue, doing favors,
hiding bitterness on taste buds,
savior for lost hearts,
refreshing vibe falls through,
maybe chocolate and cookies too.

Either one you choose, you may,
feel scattered when bitterness surface,
yet, sweetness calms the bricks of emotions,
in between hours and distance.

The sole partner, preserving feelings that makes you high.
when your soul and body slowly dies.

Digging waves of words

Mildly spinning my body towards the sound of the ears,
like white sheets blown by the cold air, drying.
carrying me, weightless,

The heat of the sun, sweats my skin to tears,
sticks of blue box cigarettes touches my lips,
everytime i preach, my heart breached, for the stone cold emotions,
captured by the hands of loneliness,

The rain shall pour on me, in those hopeless night,
when the blood rushing through our veins,
moving towards direction we can't hold,
resisting reality that flashes in view,

The drives kept sacred with our immortality,
written as the history, as reference,
tenderness lies harden beneath the layers that covers,

and I'd stand through the weathers coming,
and You'd would elevate as the wind blows,
If the wind flies you back to the starting line,
theres where we'll touch, creating presence,

Glued to strings, attached to the everlasting memories.

;)