Linger, an expression of anger

no turning back

i loved, u loved, we loved
it was heaven, no rush
we held hands all the way through
but my thoughts went wild
u acted out of reach
i went thousands of mile
to make things better in reach

i pour my heart out, sayang
i let all my guards down
u know how hard it was sayang??
i even let my ego out drown
im the type who stand for its beliefs
but for u, i ignore it all
i tried, fought what thought would be a relief
it even made my heart crawl

i pull, hold the strings as tight, as hard
u?
u just stand there and stared
what happen to you?
i asked, i beg, for the answers
when i was ready to accept ur non-existance
what u did was, lied & give me kisses

i tried my best to believe the words
but baby, in ur eyes, lies the truth
i knew it was coming, it was a cursed
u will someday, tell the truth
what u did,u left with a sentence
'im sorry'
and just dissapear in split seconds?

now, out of the blue, ure back here
saying 'I miss you' and millions of sorry
if u said u hope for me to hug & act to tear
i would say 'u fucking wrong, Haiqal Ramli'

IMPORTANT!!

if u are going to read the rendition underneath this post, please listen to Paramore-Decode while reading it! its COMPULSORY!

My rendition,of my redemption.

how could i did what i did
i turn without a look
how could i kill like i did
i glance & i took

ouh lord, neither ure near or far
im on my knees, begging u please
let me out of this misery at war
im sincere,& true,its not a tease

my pride have been drawn
my heart have been stabbed
strenghth? all gone
Faith? not a depth

how long will i be stucked
ouh god, im weak, weak as the hopeless
ouh god how much it sucked
with the words and mockery, im restless

hw much i wish i wont care
not even a bit, not even a skit
hw much i wish i would dare
as far, as near, as bit, as skit

Unoccupied, untied, lying on the ground
holding my hand up, reaching for the impossible
hopelessly dying, curling around
as the glow in my eyes dies, reaching for the impossible

look at me, ull see
the sight, the hell, the misery im in
look into my eyes, ull see
the weak,hopeless,damage im keen

as theres nothing left in my eyes,my soul
reflecting me dying,hopeless

ouh god, i wish to u,i pray,
to make it matter to me,
life, live, not stray
to make me see, its all in me

rendition of the hopeless

INSPIRING in a weird way

somehow when i hear DECODE - paramore, the words in my head, flows out like waterfall, i cant seem to stop writing. The emotions that the song gave each time i listen to it, are derived from the 'depth' in me. it brings out these deep words, whic me myself, cant explain at times. if u read anything that u dont get, dont blame me, blame the song for provoking and unleashing. hahaha

..........may

every word that i spit out
may sound bad,or worse
but it is what its all about
may be a gift or a curse

what i am to u
is not what i am to me
it doesnt matter to u
may be nothing to me

blow, blow away
the wind blows so hard
it even gives out flare
offloading the guards

i have no idea
im blank, dark & left
im not writing the criteria
this is just another theft

theft on cheap ,rusty words
those which been smashed to pieces
killed & stung, so absurd
derailed, no hugs or kisses

may it be or not
let the answer be its own
along with the clutter & plot
poluted,poisoned by its tone

Debut Video.. hahha,sounds so exclusive,NOT

OK, 1st of all, this was made about a year ago.
& 2nd, do not make fun of it cz i know its not as good
3rd it is again, my 1st attemp, so, cut me some slacks yea.
4th., ENJOY:) & COMMENT if u could

& thats afiq, my good friend, miss u dear.
& yes, that silly girl , thats me



Like a Star acoustic cover

unfinished project

Critical

morning light sparks me right
the breeze shivers my straight through heart
all this while i blank i just might
as well stays as mild

closely still you are to me
ur presence, ur smell
linger the drained love
critically winning me over

how can i say what im doing is right
when ure hurting me inside
i need u like i need air
y cant u see

i still stand here, when i know its over
i stil wait here, when i know its over

ur voice, those whispers
stop it, stop it, its so near
burning my heart, so it clears

stranded all tide up
i guess i tried,it might kill me
bt i wont give up